It’s never easy to know exactly whether the decision
you have taken is for your own good or for your worse. Once a decision is made,
your life’s path changes its course towards a different direction. Your life’s
path is more or less like a navigation point on a GPRS map. The paths and the
directions keeps drifting around you and you are left to choose the most
suitable path from the numerous rights, lefts and U-turns. And it’ll be even
more challenging when you have no idea about the destination!
Most of the times you are bound to take a wrong
turn; a wrong turn that is taken intentionally just to see how the path works
for your future or the same wrong turn taken unintentionally and later regretted.
Either way to move forward towards any direction, you have to take that
decision. You have to choose that path and you have to tread on it and
experience what the path holds for you.
Ever since the graduation, all I’ve been doing is
searching for that one right path amidst the numerous options that are laid
before me. But all I did was choose each option and carefully contemplate the
pros and cons of each such option. Over the months I started to realise, what I
think, see, read and hear about the options in front of me is nothing compared
to what I would experience firsthand in case I choose one of them.
You can make all the plans you want. But how much a
perfectly laid out plan can actually work out? Even the best laid plans fail
and mine is far from being called perfect. But I have choices. Lots of them. But
all of them have the same weight age. All of them have their own pros and cons.
If I choose one, I have to be ready to face some high roads and always be ready
to sacrifice my comfort zone. Nothing ever comes easy for sure.
So here I am. In this big city, away from home. Finally
moving forward on to a new path rather than contemplating what the path holds
in the future. Am I scared what would happen if things doesn’t work out? Hell
yes. I’m scared about a lot of things but I know I have it in me to face them all. And
that comforts me to some extent.
Future is always unknown and I’m glad not to know.
Makes my life simpler to live and to survive. Yes, surviving. I never actually
lived to survive before; I just lived a carefree life. But now I’m surviving to
live. And that makes all the difference there is.
