Finally
something happened in my so called final year B.E education. A company finally
arrived whose cut-offs and requisites matched my academic performance. And I
was excited not because I started to dream that I would clear all the rounds
and get recruited. I was just happy that I got a chance to attend at least one
campus programme while I was still in my final year. And so, as you can
guesstimate, this is not the usual “how successful am I in being an engineering
student” kind of a post.
I’m
not like your regular successful student and I’ll never be and I have stopped
feeling all the lousy, shameful and downward feelings that one usually feels
when repeatedly get hit by the rock-bottom. No, I don’t belong to that category. I’m
different in many ways and I don’t regret being clue-less and different but
what I regret are the choices that this makes me to choose. I get easily
distracted. My mind runs away with random thoughts and it would take me a lot
of time to get back to reality. By then it would be too late. I hate late
realizations and I always realize what I’m doing is wrong when it’s too late!! That’s
me.
They
say failure is the stepping stone to success and I’m just waiting for the day
that this phrase turns true when it comes to my career. No surprises here if it
doesn’t turn true. I dreamed a year to become a Doctor in my 11th
standard and 3 months to 12th standard (for reasons unknown) I
started dreaming to be an aerospace engineer/ a secret spy for my country!! When
my 12th was almost over, I got inspired to get into Biotechnology as
it sounded like a promising career with many new opportunities. My parents even
got me registered at a college that offered B.Sc course in Biotechnology. I
even remember giving measurements for the college uniform. But suddenly I felt
I wanted to pursue Biotechnology in Engineering and not a BTBM course that my
parents had just paid the fees for. So went for the COMED-K round and
unfortunately I didn’t get the seat for that course in Mysore. I wasn’t ready
to go to any Bangalore Colleges. So as the last resort, my hay-wired mind came
to a conclusion that may be I was meant to take up Computer Science. I still
fathom why I ever took this course and especially what made me to select the
worst college ever to pursue this horrible course. The first thought that came to me after I took
the course and came out of the COMED-K rounds was this: “Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life??” Too late to turn
back and I just didn’t have the faith in me to decide anything else. So the
following four years happened (and is still happening!) and sometimes regrets
engulf me to the extent of getting a migraine and yet, I live with my choices every
day.
Mid-P.S:
Even though I hate my course, yet I’m into some fields like web-site designing
and DBMS. But regrets and lack of interest at anything at times has lead me to
gain only partial knowledge in these fields. Will I ever find what I’m looking
for or do I even know what it is that I really want? I’ve left this to the
“FATES”.
Again
I’m side tracking even in my post. Ok, let me come back. So the prospectus of
me, along with a few of my friends who are unfortunately in the same boat as me
got a chance to go to a neighbouring engineering college to attend the whole
process of campus interview. We were, excited and apprehensive and most
importantly happy to avoid attending our regular classes as the chance to
attend for campus would fetch us free attendance!
Two
months left of engineering and we still hadn’t collected our original marks
cards of 10th, 12th and other semesters. So there we were
strutting about our college corridors with various documents at hand and acting
like we were getting prepared for the biggest battle ground the next day. When
we heard the name of the company that was calling us, the name sounded fancy
and a bit familiar, so that was enough for us. I did a little googling and
found that there are two companies with a similar name- one being an IT company
and the other a technical service providing “BPO-ish” company. I had a vague
feeling that this was a BPO. Why else would there be no cut-offs! But the package sounded good.
There
is this really irritating rumour at my college (I don’t know whether this is
actually genuine or dumb-shit!) that if an engineering student ends up working
for a BPO then that student will never get a chance to get into an IT company.
Am I the only one who thinks this is completely and utterly false or am I wrong
about this? Anyway, the rumour served its purpose. Most of the girls from my
class didn’t attend. But still there were many candidates from other colleges
on the day of the campus recruitment. I guess not everyone believes in silly
rumours and stays back.
The
lady from the company gave a nice presentation/ad about how nice their company
is and how fast they provide services to their customers, how they handle
bottleneck pressures and how well they make the employees feel at home by
celebrating their birthdays and other festive holidays. So that meant they
won’t provide any holidays for any festivals and they get to eat the cake in
the middle of the day if it’s your birthday! (I rolled my eyes but my friends
were all gaping at her like she would give them all a golden egg if they got
selected!).
This
was followed by the first round: communication
screening, where we were required to speak about a general topic for about
a minute. And the students with best communication skill would be selected for
the IQ test and then the HR round. They segregated all the students into groups
of 30. Since the students from my college were more in number, they kept most
of our names at the last. So for four hours we did nothing but wait for the
other batches to finish. I hated the waiting part. Especially since the weather
was really hot, the room was stuffy and just plain irritating. Many students
who were waiting lost their patience and went home. I had half a mind to go but
I rode my Dio on that horrible road to this college (which is situated in the
middle of no-where) and so I wanted to stay and see would I really make the
first round. And let me tell you, it was a challenge for me and my
hair-brained mind to quit day-dreaming about me speaking fluently and wittily
in the upcoming communication round because I always felt like if I dream or
crave about something way too much, I would probably end up messing it to an
irreparable extent. It has happened to me several times before and I refused to
get into that dreamy loop again. I deliberately thought about other things,
like movies that I hadn’t yet watched yet. I even tried to focus on creating
another flash-55 but I was just not in a right place for it that day.
During
the process of waiting, we did have a lot of fun playing silly games like dumb-charades where my friend would
silently mime with her best effort and I had to guess which movie she was
trying to tell me. She had kept some really difficult Kannada Movie name and it
was a challenging task to figure it out but we lost track of time and ended up
enjoying and forgot that we were in that college for campus interview. Me being
from a girl’s college (yes, there is an engineering college only for ladies in
my city, one of the top reasons why I hate it even more!) had almost forgotten
what a co-ed atmosphere feels like. So it was good time-pass for me to observe
my “surroundings”. I was amused to see most of my college friends acting way
more girly than usual and giggling at nothing in particular. “Look at them, they are acting like they
have woken up from Stone Age and have never seen so many guys before in their
lives. How embarrassing! “I hissed to my friend in irritation. But unfortunately,
even she had been bitten by the “stone age” bug and she responded to me with a ridiculous
high-pitched laughter.
I
don’t know what it is but being from a girl’s college, other college students
especially the guys start to view us like we have hailed from the planet Venus
or something. We seem to appear very different from the other college girls. I
could feel most of their eyes following every movement that we made; comments
were exchanged followed by ridiculous laughter even from the guys’ side. Typical indeed! And then someone started the
pen-cap whistle blowing competition. I think it was one of the guys who were sitting
at the far end of the seminar hall, blew his whistle for time-pass. That was reciprocated
by one of the girls from my college. And the guys (no doubt happy to be
challenged by the girls from Venus!) replied back with two short whistles and
which was in-turn reciprocated by the girls. All in all, by then the uneasy “I stare at you and you stare back at me and
bend your head in embarrassment” barrier just broke down and every one of
us ended up laughing in a friendly manner.
Alas,
the fun had just started but it had to be put on hold as the lady from that
company came in to announce the names of next set of candidates. It was my
turn. Along with 30 other girls from my college, we headed to the discussion
room. By this time (after a 4 hour wait) we were all well aware that the
company had selected most of the candidates from the morning sessions and we
were just being given a chance for waiting so much. Nonetheless, I took it as a
challenge and entered the room to give my best shot.
There
were four topics on the board- favourite sport star, favourite pass-time activity,
favourite possession and favourite movie. We were given the choice to pick any
topic and speak about it for about a minute. I chose my favourite pass-time
activity which is writing of course. Luckily I had internet access in my smart
phone and noted down this short poem
from my blog. The lady randomly started calling our names and pretty soon it was my
turn. I told them what writing means to me and how from being just a pass-time
activity it has pretty much turned into my passion over the years. I spoke a
few words about my blog and ended my speech by reciting the poem. They all
seemed every impressed and the lady said “wow, that was nice” as the others
enthusiastically clapped for me. That did make my sprits soar. But unfortunately
out of 35 students, they selected only 3 candidates for the next round and I
wasn’t one of them. Still my spirits were way too high to get dampen. I reminded
myself that I was here just to participate and to recheck my level of stage
fright (I was glad I was still my bold, unflinching self and that the women’s
college hadn’t softened my insides as I often feared it would happen!) .
All
in all, I went there to experience something different and indeed ended up
having a good time at the end of the day. And as for the campus recruitment,
well that was just one company, there will be more. If not on-campus,
definitely off-campus. With all the negatives that I keep musing about my
career in general, I’ve come to learn one thing in particular about me that
will never change: If I love something and that something interests me, I will
give my 100 percent to it.
P.S: I know there is no such thing as a mid-P.S ... I wanted
to delete the two paragraphs at the beginning but that wouldn’t have given a
complete picture of the on-goings of my mind during the face of self-evaluation.
I’m amazed I ended this post with a touch of optimism at the end. Maybe I’m
just in a good mood today!! :)
Hey Neha. First time i am visiting your blog. I like your writing. keep it up. I can also relate to this story. That was 15 years ago when I was in my final year of engineering. I finally got a low paying first job (off campus) in a small company but in IT. I learned a lot there, then changed jobs many times. Now looking back, I am so happy I stuck to IT. Now I live in Europe, have a huge salary, and have a great life. All did was keep my eyes open for opportunities. That’s all you need to do too. Enjoy life and good luck.
ReplyDeleteHi Anon (whoever you are!), Thank you for the visit and for your kind feedback. I wish I would get lucky like you that is if the recession doesn't hit this year!! And you are absolutely right about keeping an eye out for opportunities. Thanks again :)
DeleteInterview ! It irks me always. why people feel much happier when they get sold out? i need to know the answer to it yet. life means enjoying the activites we do and giving a meaning to our life but students have the different meaning for this. Atleast i got a companian now :) cheers Neha :)
ReplyDelete(And i guess mysore is the store house of many girls' colleges, as much as co-edu)
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You are right Vinayak. But earning is what matters now-a-days and sometimes that means one should give up on dreams temporarily :(
DeleteEven I'm torn between what to choose next. Still figuring it out!!
And glad I could share it with someone who's on the same boat as me :)
Thanks for the visit.
Haha..it seems like you are in the same boat which I was in, when I did my engineering..I think its the same story with everyone.Not everyone is like us to admit..Be happy, do whatever you want, dont worry about on campus, off campus and bullshit like that, cos once you join the company, history repeats again :D..you'll start thinking, is this where I belong?..cluelessness remains, and it rocks :D
ReplyDeletehaha, alteast you are clue-less with a sufficient bank balance keerthana! :P :P
Deletei liked that you said you realized there is no such thing as a mid-PS because that really bothered me.
ReplyDeleteAhh, of all the things in this post I'm surprised that bothered you!!
DeleteHey Liked your post... but a lil concern I am showing dnt mind it... Initially u wanted to join biotech but u ended up in CS adn forced yourself to like CS even if u didn want it to... Now I think again you are going to do the same mistake by taking smthing not of your choice but bcoz u r getting it... dun go for the job if u dnt like it... there are in-numerous floating around... jus wait for the one that will suit you best and u will love to work not forced to do so
ReplyDeleteIf you dont try to get what you love you will be forced to love what you get
Ya initially I forced myself to like the course. Eventhough I hate it to some extent, I can't deny that I've enjoyed working on a mini project in my 6th semester. The feeling of having able to code an entire project and see it execute has its own high. Its difficult ofcourse but all fields have their ups and downs. When I think only about the downs, I tend to hate my field, but I do try focusing on the positive side. Not every dreams will come true but I guess whatever I'm doing right now, if I do it with a little focus I'll start to enjoy.
DeleteSometimes forcing to love something you initially hate is not a bad idea don't you think?
as a doc, we dont have campus interviews but i gotta say - from what u and fellow friends describe, it sounds pretty cool :) i would love to have docs interview me about sportstars , my passions etc rather than boring old stuff
ReplyDeleteThese type of interviews sound fun but they don't conduct it in all the companies that come for engineering colleges. Only a few companies have this in their interview list. But yeah, it'll be fun to attend interviews for such companies :)
DeleteThat was a fun, honest and true account of your campus recruitment programme. Hope you find your dream job and NEVER give up writing.
ReplyDeleteThanks KeyEm and I'll duly follow your last advice :)
DeleteI usually hate interviews. Fortunately, I had to give only one. But that was one hell of an experience.
ReplyDeleteIf you would like to read my interview, here's the link :
http://imagination19.blogspot.in/2011/09/interview-drama.html
Btw Nicely written. :)
Thanks Ajay and lucky you :)
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Having just passed out of engineering college this year and experiencing my first ever campus recruitment process a few months back, I can totally connect with your feelings. But I had it a lot more easier I think. My HR interview was fun. The HR person was a very nice guy and I really enjoyed answering his questions.You never know, next time around your experience night be totally different.About the students from morning session getting selected..well that happens all the time..:(Just don't give up.. God always has bigger and better plan for us. Best of luck for your next placement drive!! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Neenu :) and I hope so too to get lucky in my future interview :)
Deleteso you are also screwed and grilled royally by VTU studying software engineering, management and entrepreneurship??? how about software architecture?? I still wonder how do I managed to pass in first attempt!!!
ReplyDeleteAttending off campus interviews and pool campus drives are fun, if you make it to second round, technical round will always comprise questions which we don't know
Nice post!!!
You made some decent points thereRecruitment process
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